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My first book "Sí, soy yo"

Let you go,

start to die inside.

Thousand flowers desapearing,

while you fly.

Crashing oceans,

wind flows.

Made me cry,

while i let you go.

Clear water ,

let me see

and explain me,

why the wish

never could be.

Will i never good enought?

A veces nos ponemos a pensar, en si seremos realmente bueno en algo que sorprendamos al mundo.Y a veces pensamos en que algún día seremos tan buenos en algo que quizá consigamos sorprender a aquellos que están cerca de nosotros.

En la edad temprana , se nos enseña con símbolos de satisfacción y recompensa cuando hacemos algo bien y por el contrario , lo opuesto al hacer algo mal.Así aprendemos a diferenciar , lo que está bien de lo que está mal.Pero...¿y cuando somos jóvenes adultos?

Pensamos que ya hemos aprendido lo que esta bien y lo que está mal, pero se nos olvida glorificar cuando hacemos algo bien , por el contrario si algo está mal siempre lo manifestamos.Creo que en muchas mentes provoca una confusión, distorsión e insatisfacción del ser consigo mismo.Creando seres insatisfechos, incapaces de creer ser buenos en algo o merecedores de nada.Y si por algún casual , alguien les dice que algo está bien,no lo creen o simplemente piensan que solo intentan levantarte la moral.Porque hace mucho tiempo han dejado de creer en que pueden ser buenos en algo.Buscando siempre la satisfacción y reconocimiento de los que están más cerca y como solemos ser más invisibles para las personas más cercanas, nuestra insatisfacción va en aumento.

Temiendo que el día de mañana habrá alguien más cercano y no creerás merecer lo bueno que te pueda ofrecer , porque sabes que tú no podrás ofrecer lo mejor de ti. Por que has olvidado en que quizá, también tú merezcas la pena.

The treasure

ME -Is bad to want that someone wants you?
"IT" -No, why?
ME  -Because i wish to know that exist.Is it possible?
"IT" -Have you really want someone.
ME -I think...yes.
"IT" -Then, exist.Isn t it?
ME -But why do anybody want me?
"IT" -How do you know that?
ME-I know i am just a "caprice"for people.
"IT" -Can a person be a caprice for another?
ME -Of course they need me to forget their past, then...they move on and forget me.
"IT"-If you help them to move on, that is good.
ME -Yes but makes me feel stupid.
"IT"-But not unuseful.
ME -I guess, you are right.
"IT" -And that is good, you help them to have better lifes.
ME -Yes! but what happend with me!? 
"IT" -When someone who really want you appeared he will not let you go.
ME -I heard that  a lot....are you kidding me?
"IT" -hahahha! no! really! There are still  men who do things to keep the treasure they found.
ME -But i am not a  treasure for anybody!
"IT"-Did you find a treasure?
ME -I think i found many but in diferent ways, i found a treasure in one who made me laught, i found another         treasure in other who made me think , i found a treasure.....
"IT"-What....
ME -I  didnt find the treasure of real love, i mean i loved, i could do anything for my treasure and that, just              because i wanted.Till i descovered  the other part didnt.
"IT" -Didn t....love you?
ME -Exacly.
"IT" -Maybe you were a treasure of  a big one but not the "love".
ME -That is not very good.Why?
"IT" -Do you need to be love for someone?
ME -Yes
"IT" -Why!?
ME -The feel is incredible, but allways finish when they move on.I imagine to have that feeling all the time                thank to somoone and give it the same, will be amazing!
"IT" -Di you make feel that mazinez to your treasures?
ME -No, not really.But i tried, is just....i can t when i feel they stop to care about me.Mayeb i am                   exigente,but...shouldn t theycare me to keep me as a treasure love?
"IT"-Yes.
ME -Oh! i see, you are trying to make me see that only who care about me and keep me as a treasure will make me feel that feeling and i will be able to give it back.
The thing is that i tried to explain that to that person .
"IT"- did he act?
ME-mmm....No ;(
"IT"-Exacly, you have your answer.
ME- still be sad  that nobody make action to keep me.
"IT"- The happines arrives when someone really want to give it that to you.


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Things to do

New day, not so good but not so bad.

-Good weather.

-Think that there is a solution for everything less the death.

-Smile, you dont do it often and maybe you just need to practice.

-Go for a walk, thats allways help.

-Write, read,sing or whatever you like and cost no money!

                Lets do it!

And now ...say  Good morning!!!!!!!!!!!!to your self!!!!!!!!!!!:)

SLUTA!

STOP! basta de sufrir y acordarte de quien no estubo  cuando más lo necesitaba!
STOP! to suffer and remember  someone who wasn t when i really needed!
STOP! basta de ricordare e sofrire per chi non é stato quando piu avevo bisogno!

Porque si me preguntas...

Y me puse a pensar, porque  a veces te sientes culpable por todo.siempre suele haber un motivo detrás de cada acción y comportamiento.Pero a veces quienes tiene  las respuestas son aquellos en los que dejamos de creer.

Aunque si dejamos de creer , es porque quizá ell@s dejaron de creer en nosotr@s.Y resulta que el porque lo tendríamos nosotros mismos.Creo que la falta de comunicación sincera hace que se pierdan en el tiempo todas las respuestas.

Porque, ahora mismo si me preguntas el porque, te diré tantas razones, pero olvidé cuál es la verdadera, aunque cuando hay sentimientos sinceros , depende del tiempo, se olvida o perdura la razón de la verdad.Aquella que no engaña.

Si alguien perdió la fe en mí, quizá es porque no me pregunto¿porque?o si lo hizo no se paro a pensar en mi respuesta.

Me dicen que soy complicada, negativa y si me preguntas en el momento seguro te sabría decir el porque, otra cosa es que quieras creerla por conveniencia.Porque también he escuchado decir que soy risueña, alegre...Y si no has conocido está parte pregúntame ¿porqué?

Creo que la filosofía siempre trata de lidiar con los dos sentidos de una respuesta, haciendo un contoneo a las ramificaciones de las mismas.

Everytime

Everytime the same feeling,
everytime to feel they`ve gone,
everytime to see how they lie,
when they said -i will not go.

Everytime they start to build you,
and then breake you  slow and slow,
because maybe they prefere another,
and they stop to care about you.

Everytime stronger,
waiting that their words become true,
but this time i ll do what like they do,
just moving and let them go.

And when i start to miss those moments,
i will remeber why they didnt do.

Waiting for"the nothing"

I asked him to come because i need of him, i need a support because i was passing through a bad time,he was indiferent of my situation and never had time for me.
I was alone and  his excuses were  fulling my head.i was missing him but he didnt , i started to feel more empty and finally he desapeared.

I feel the same but, now, greatfull, that he will be happier and i will be  freedom of waitting for "the nothing".

Again and again, is allways the same.Nobody fights next to me,and during my fight i allways win.

His indifference

“The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.” 
― Elie Wiesel

And is when i descovered his indifference for me when i let him go.