Y no es que le eche de menos, es que se me quedo atascada una espinita, porque no ha venido aun nadie a sacarla.
No es que este triste, es que me quede parada y el viento hoy no corre para impulsarme.
No es que este desesperanzada, es que elegí otro camino al que aun nadie me ha dado las indicaciones para continuar en la bifurcación del rìo.

And today i will say good bye to "love",
to the love that i know.

I met you when i was ready to leave  this place,
but "love", you convince me to stay.

You didnt convince me with words, plus the actions
With those that surprise me, those that made me feel sure , protect and love.

Today i will say goodbye the  sadness you  gave me too, when you stop to care.

Today i will say goodbye"love".

Love versus happiness

People talk about happiness, how to get the compelatly happiness.
There are many ways of happiness, but how to be compleat with someone else and still be happy? That is a hard work,unless you understand love as transformation of happiness.
Love doesn t mean allways happiness, Love means sacrifice but people nowdays don t want sacrifice themselfes for someone else and at the same time want to have somebody close.

If you want to be complet and fully happy,the only way is to be alone.Do whatever you want when you want , in the moment you wish, without explain yourself to anybody.But at the moment you find somone your life stop to be just yours ,become 50%-50% with someone else.Don t let the other person dominate because at the same time you need to remember there are two people who need to learn to scarifice. And sacrifice  doens t mean sad, poor of soul...is to share sometimes lose other win.
Love means create other kind of happiness becaus ethe scarifice you do today will come back to you in other time.

Love doesnt mean abuse neither, nobody deserve be treat under any superiority, love doesnt mean treat someone as a game, dont confuse sacrifice with abuse because is not.

You can t give up of love when become different as you expect because love have many faces and sacrifice of both sides is one of its faces.

When both people sacrifice something for the otehr become a HAPPINESS LOVE.

No espero mas...

Y cuando se dio cuenta ya era demasiado tarde, ya se había ido. Decidió no esperarle. 
Su incapacidad de ser fiel, sincero o de tener un simple gesto que captara su atención la tenia exhausta. No sentirse querida, ni deseada, la llevaba a pensar demasiado en su futuro, sabia que el confiar no bastaba, debía de haber hechos de por medio ¿ sino que sentido tendría para seguir su camino?
La habían tomado  demasiadas veces el pelo como para pensar que esta vez era distinto.Solo se preguntaba y si se equivocaba pero en su interior no sentía que estuviera errando. Por primera vez había decidido marcharse sin explicaciones y se sentía solamente...libre.

9 November 2016

And today i thought about her.
I wanted to hug her but i was scared she hitted herself  as i was the one who tried hard to make her walk when she didnt want.
I just support my head over hers and  told her "see you in one month T-ita".

You made me feel value when i went inside your room and you try to take my hand while smiled, i liked to think you kind of missed me or maybe you felt glad i came back , because i know; to your eyes i was the bad one, the one who encourage you walk when you didnt want, the one who feed you even if maybe you werent hungry because you need the nutrients for your little body and hard muscles, the one who desperated when you tested me.
I was so happy that you become so easy going  with me that i forgot that maybe you were really tired of something else inside you,even if you smiled and laught.

I just saw how your face was like a sunshine when i sang you while i walked and run pushing your chair throught the green of the Downs.I remember how you raise your head to look at the trees, and how just that maked you smiled like if you were watching fairies dancing around the leafs.

I often think how you made laught to people when you smiled and jump to be closer to them.
Is curious how i think you as stuburn but how amazing was see your face when you smiled.

Donde quedara...

Y el sentir de que te cojan la mano y el sentir de la voz que sabes que te calmara.Porque solo el sabe los sentimientos que albergas.

Y de todo lo que te dio no te cuerdas, hasta que de repente te das cuenta que no todas las nuevas personas que puedas conocer te harán olvidar.Porque no todos sabrán  ver  dentro de la piel , sentimientos que albergas.

Y todo se quedara en un sueño...

Learning to accept

And those who promise to be your friends after to leave you, will desapear and you will learn when they will not ask you any more, even if they know you need them.

Maybe you thought they said the trueth, they said lets be friends, sometimes happend, i did, i do sometimes too.Maybe Karma, but the end is that you are alone.

Nobody will come to cover your tears in joy even after a lost.

Tomorrow maybe you are happy because you dont want to realize of the fact that people gone even those who still breathing.When you remember those who passed away cry, just cry and don feel shame maybe you dont need company or someone who can hug you, just need to cry.

But tomorrow remember,people need hugs or just company, and you can do it too.

Sorry to just need and maybe dont give enought.

Tash

Little star, little star ,
stronger like the brigthest sun.
So cheeky with the trees and so gentle with the clouds.
But all were happy to hear your laught.

Just your smile was the most beautiful sound ,that you never could pronounce.
And still in our heads even when you said goodnight.

And today i think about you.

How i was destroying you, 
how i am actually destroying you,
in my day a day i don t used to realize how much pain i am causing you,
i am so sorry,is not my intention.

I know i love you, i know many of us do.
But they dont want that we  care about you,
they arent able to see farder than an interest, 
their own interest.

They dont want to accept we can live with less, 
the dont want to accept the system can be rebuild.
They are scared.

You are my mother, 
you are ours,
the earth mother.

And when everybody and everything around desapear,you remain,you alone.
And you know that everything will back to your mind and maybe cry but stay strong,get inspire by the green of the grass by the pink of the flowers by the brown of the trunk,think of the earth, because sometimes you need to forget about the sky.