I can t stop to think of the energy put in someone who is not caring about you, while people surround ask you how are you everydays,

Imagine you put that energy into those who ask you, into those who say good morning, into those who think of just to say to you hello.

Can you imagine?

Now, can you do it?

Why do we focus in those who don t care abot us?

Y dejame allí

¿Y si alguien viniese y  me llevase?, despacito y sin hacer ruido. Imagínate, ¿como seria el mundo?.Igual. Todo pasa.Alguien se acordaría, se daría cuenta, pero por cuanto.

¿Nadie sabe que somos prescindibles? siempre pensamos de lo prescindibles que somos en la búsqueda de un trabajo, pensando que siempre habrá alguien mejor. 

Aunque...a  la vez tan imprescindibles, para alguien mas.Porque...porque tu lo eres para mi, quiero decir imprescindible.Estas aquí, por algo¿verdad?. Si no...¿porque vendrías a llevarme?

Por eso, por eso pienso que me debes considerar prescindible para algo, pero para alguien o para ti seré imprescindible.¿Que te parece si me gusta pensar eso?¿te molesta?. Si soy prescindible no te molestara porque te sera igual y si es por lo contrario, es porque te gustara pensar que si te soy imprescindible es porque necesito que alguien me lleve, y para eso, tu serias imprescindible para mi . 

Si te parece, me puedes llevar lejos, muy lejos, a la cima mas alta donde veamos a todos pequeñitos o mejor, donde no veamos a nadie mas que a aquello que hace ruiditos sin sentido, que dejan huellas pequeñitas o grandes sobre la tierra, que veamos los colores de aquello que sale de ella.Y si no quieres venir, déjame allí.Te prometo sonreir pero no hacer ruido.

And when the moon clean her face, her light appeared.But noody could see as everybody were sleeping under the clouds that covered the sky.And she smiled while take care of her stars and watch the night in silence while the lullubye sound.

Didn t wait more

And when he realized it was too late, she was gone. She decided not to wait for him.

His inability to be faithful, sincere or to have a simple gesture that caught her attention made her was exhausted. Not feeling loving or wanted, made her think too much about her future, she knew that trusting was not enough, he must have done with actions, otherwise what sense would she have to keep her go on?

They had been kiddig her too many times to think that this time was different. 

Just wondered if she was wrong but inside of herself, she did not feel that was wrong.

 For the first time she had decided to leave without explanation and she felt just ... free.

Surrender shout

My silence came from the shout,
the shout nobody listen, the shout people decided to ignore.
Nobody listen ,we are too busy
even if they come together, these shouts came to low.

I didn t listen how you scream for help,
as nobody listen our souls or minds.

I pretended to show you, how i was shouting inside,
but now i understand you were fighting without to shout.
Cause, is not just me, we all have a mess inside of us.

And you in front of me and i, in front of you,
we just let, the surrender arrives.

9

Y hoy me despertaron tu recuerdo. Hoy es 9, te fuiste un 9...
Tu risa picarona se fue, pero hoy me acuerdo.
Me acuerdo como querías estar cerca y yo solo te puse tus fotos delante para que vieras recuerdos con tu familia y otros cuidadores mientras seguía colocando tu habitación, nunca pensé que me quisieras pero en ese momento  querías tenerme cerca, querías poner tu cabeza encima de mis hombros para descansar, porque no podías mas y te pregunte que te dolía pero solo parecías cansada y solo ahora me doy cuenta de que solo querías descansar sobre la que estaba allí, sobre mi.

....y me fui y ya no te vimos mas-.

Hoy me dijeron que te paso y sigo sin entenderlo, pero también veo que quizá no supe ver cosas evidentes y es que no tener voz no significa no poder hablar pero no escuche pequeña.Perdoname.

Gracias pequeña, por que a pesar de ser tan testaruda de lo que me acuerdo es de tu risa, gracias pequeña T.

Y no es que le eche de menos, es que se me quedo atascada una espinita, porque no ha venido aun nadie a sacarla.
No es que este triste, es que me quede parada y el viento hoy no corre para impulsarme.
No es que este desesperanzada, es que elegí otro camino al que aun nadie me ha dado las indicaciones para continuar en la bifurcación del rìo.

And today i will say good bye to "love",
to the love that i know.

I met you when i was ready to leave  this place,
but "love", you convince me to stay.

You didnt convince me with words, plus the actions
With those that surprise me, those that made me feel sure , protect and love.

Today i will say goodbye the  sadness you  gave me too, when you stop to care.

Today i will say goodbye"love".

Love versus happiness

People talk about happiness, how to get the compelatly happiness.
There are many ways of happiness, but how to be compleat with someone else and still be happy? That is a hard work,unless you understand love as transformation of happiness.
Love doesn t mean allways happiness, Love means sacrifice but people nowdays don t want sacrifice themselfes for someone else and at the same time want to have somebody close.

If you want to be complet and fully happy,the only way is to be alone.Do whatever you want when you want , in the moment you wish, without explain yourself to anybody.But at the moment you find somone your life stop to be just yours ,become 50%-50% with someone else.Don t let the other person dominate because at the same time you need to remember there are two people who need to learn to scarifice. And sacrifice  doens t mean sad, poor of soul...is to share sometimes lose other win.
Love means create other kind of happiness becaus ethe scarifice you do today will come back to you in other time.

Love doesnt mean abuse neither, nobody deserve be treat under any superiority, love doesnt mean treat someone as a game, dont confuse sacrifice with abuse because is not.

You can t give up of love when become different as you expect because love have many faces and sacrifice of both sides is one of its faces.

When both people sacrifice something for the otehr become a HAPPINESS LOVE.

No espero mas...

Y cuando se dio cuenta ya era demasiado tarde, ya se había ido. Decidió no esperarle. 
Su incapacidad de ser fiel, sincero o de tener un simple gesto que captara su atención la tenia exhausta. No sentirse querida, ni deseada, la llevaba a pensar demasiado en su futuro, sabia que el confiar no bastaba, debía de haber hechos de por medio ¿ sino que sentido tendría para seguir su camino?
La habían tomado  demasiadas veces el pelo como para pensar que esta vez era distinto.Solo se preguntaba y si se equivocaba pero en su interior no sentía que estuviera errando. Por primera vez había decidido marcharse sin explicaciones y se sentía solamente...libre.